I am emotionally drained. And at the same time I feel as tense and tight as a string on a violin ... or I should say cello as I am listening to the new Apocalyptica "Shadowmaker". Strange timing ... I would also say bad timing. A couple of the songs seems to be talking straight at me. Nice coincidence, if I would believe in coincidences. I guess I do sometimes if the things or actions that make up the coincidence are isolated, as an isolated instance. But when a bunch of the new songs I stumbled upon (Apocalyptica, 10 Years, Theory of a Deadman, Of Mice and Men ...) in 2 days time seems to be talking to me directly, it has freakingly passed the "coincidence level".

It must be pretty darn obvious if a person online has sensed that I am very tense and I have not said anything other than very casual conversation ... or so I thought.

"Tense, no not at all, just tired maybe"
"Liar. I can feel that something is deeply bothering you"
"oooo... look at the time. Sorry, I have to leave now" 
"You think running away will resolve what causes you to be so tense?"
"Ok, psychoanalyst lady. You are getting a little creepy"
"That is what I do. Are you really going to sleep?"
"Let's say I have to go to bed so I can get some rest before going back to work tomorrow. Sleep? Not so much lately"
"What bothers you will not go away like that"
"Oh, I am aware of that. This is something that will never leave me. I really have no choice in the matter."
"Oooooh ... you are in love with someone ...how cute. Is this your first love? Is she in school with you?"
 Good night Creepy Lady"